I was going to write another {What I've Learned} post today, but instead, I want to share a little bit of my heart with you guys. My ugly heart. Oh boy, here goes.
I struggle with jealousy.
It's so ugly and such a yucky part of my heart. Far too often, I compare myself to others and notice that I come up lacking. And I want what they have. I want their handmade biz success. I yearn to be the one announcing a pregnancy. I want a beautiful house with hardwood floors. I wish I was a better writer, photographer, artist, etc. etc.
Some days it doesn't affect my day or my mood. but I have noticed that lately I am starting to feel sad about what I don't have and I lose the joy for what I do have. The overflowing blessings in my life that I don't merit at all, but that God has poured on me-- on us-- because He just loves me.
The truth is, there are always going to be people who are better at me in XYZ. There will be people who have what I want, what I don't have. And I need to get over it.
Jealousy is so unattractive. Ew.
I have a gorgeous husband who is my very best friend and loves me with all his heart.
I have a job that lets me pursue my passion and get paid for doing what I love.
I live in Hawaii.
I attend an awesome church and have group of beautiful sisters and brothers that encourage and support me.
I have 12 (yes, 12 now!) nieces and nephews, 6 brothers and sisters, two loving parents and amazing in-laws.
I get to eat three meals a day, I have a roof over my head, and a soft bed to sleep in at night.
So, go away jealousy. You're not wanted here.
I wish it were that easy, but at least it's a start.
{photos from my walk around the neighborhood last night.}
lindsay
I struggle with jealousy.
It's so ugly and such a yucky part of my heart. Far too often, I compare myself to others and notice that I come up lacking. And I want what they have. I want their handmade biz success. I yearn to be the one announcing a pregnancy. I want a beautiful house with hardwood floors. I wish I was a better writer, photographer, artist, etc. etc.
Some days it doesn't affect my day or my mood. but I have noticed that lately I am starting to feel sad about what I don't have and I lose the joy for what I do have. The overflowing blessings in my life that I don't merit at all, but that God has poured on me-- on us-- because He just loves me.
The truth is, there are always going to be people who are better at me in XYZ. There will be people who have what I want, what I don't have. And I need to get over it.
Jealousy is so unattractive. Ew.
I have a gorgeous husband who is my very best friend and loves me with all his heart.
I have a job that lets me pursue my passion and get paid for doing what I love.
I live in Hawaii.
I attend an awesome church and have group of beautiful sisters and brothers that encourage and support me.
I have 12 (yes, 12 now!) nieces and nephews, 6 brothers and sisters, two loving parents and amazing in-laws.
I get to eat three meals a day, I have a roof over my head, and a soft bed to sleep in at night.
But even if I didn't have any of that, if it was all taken away tomorrow-- I have a Father who loves me and calls me His child! Even with this ugly heart, He is enraptured with me. And that will never be taken away.
I wish it were that easy, but at least it's a start.
{photos from my walk around the neighborhood last night.}
lindsay